I’ve entered the awkward phase.
I’ve had plenty of them throughout my life. I was wretched in recognizing them. I was wretched in understanding what these awkward phases meant.
I’m working very hard to improve my comprehension skills regarding these awkward phrases.
Riding 468 miles with 17,000+ feet of climb across the state of Iowa was a transformative experience. Two years ago, I could barely walk around the block. Losing 92 pounds helps. A lot.
In the days after achieving the aforementioned milestone, I’ve re-entered that awkward phase where I’m not sure how to answer the question “What’s… next?”
Because there must be a “next.”
It might be a “physical exertion next.” It might be a “professional goal next.” Or it might be something else.
But there must be a “Next.”
Because that’s the way I’m wired.
I just finished Relentless: From Good To Great To Unstoppable by Tim Grover. He was the personal trainer for numerous NBA superstars including Kobe Bryant, Michael Jordan and Dwyane Wade. Grover owns Attack Athletics. He focuses on mental toughness and result-driven performance.
A dear friend (a phrase I do not use lightly) recommended this book to me. For the first time ever, I felt as if the author had somehow slipped into the deepest areas of my mind, looked around, departed and then wrote a book about what he found.
If you think that is frightening, trust me… it frightened me as well.
And astonished me.
I marked passages on almost every single page. As Grover delineates between three types of personalities (Coolers, Closers and Cleaners), every statement he made resonated. For anyone attempting to understand high performance individuals, this book is required reading.
While everyone was congratulating me for losing weight and finishing RAGBRAI, the aforementioned bike ride, there was something else happening in my head.
I said to myself in silence only two words.
And now… in this season of awkwardness… I wait.
I wait for whatever I will label as “Next.”
It will come to me. It always does.